u just have no idea..

everyday i want to be able to talk to you, but it just seems impossible. to be able to interact with you, engage in conversation. friends surround you, people who care about, i just dont have a place there. everytime i wanna talk to you, you seem to disappear among the crowd, always with others. i can never catch you alone..

he's always there, making fun of me. trying to disturb me with his friendship with you. to him its a joke, to me its more than just a joke. why cant we just be friends? the way we were when we were younger?

everytime i wonder, what did i do wrong? or was it what did i not do? to only be staring from a distance, see you perpetually with him, never having a chance to get to know you more. you always seem so critical, never having time just to talk. life always seems so hopeless..without you..

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ME